I just can't stop cying. She's 11 1/2 years old and has been the perfect friend all these years. She's a black standard poodle. I've had her since she was 7 weeks old. I took her to the vet yesterday (on the 4th, the vet came in just for me) She's terminal, probably liver cancer that has now gone to her brain.
I've had her in several times, worried about her lack of energy but she always checked out ok, you know, she's getting old, older dogs slow down. yesterday she just didn't want to get off her bed and she only ate a handful of food. I thought she was tuckered out from being down at the river the day before, but she is going downhill fast.
I need to start digging her grave today after work. I can't stop crying. I'm leaving for Italy in a week. My DH is housebound and is always interacting with her. He's going to be lost without her.
She's not in pain. She lays on her bed and her eyes follow me around, every now and then she'll wag her tail when I talk to her. I hope she's still alive when I get home. If she starts to suffer with pain, I'll have to take her into the vet and have her put down.
I'm just so torn up. I don't want another pet. It's just so hard when they die.
Making a splash on the Kings River in Northwest Arkansas. Zone 6a
My heart aches for you and your little friend.There are no words that will make you feel any better right now,just know that your friends here are thinking about you and hoping it will be quick and painless.Most of us have been there.Take care of yourself.(((hugs))) Mavis
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Posts: 486 | Location: Ontario Canada zone 5a | Registered: April 16, 2002
We lost our favorite Poodle a couple of years ago. I am sure our spirits will be reunited again someday in the future. Until then, we had her cremated and her aches are with us where ever we live so we know she is still with us in a small way.
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Posts: 2889 | Location: Eastern Washington State, zone 6a. | Registered: December 13, 2004
I'm so sorry, Jae. You're right. That is very sad. We love them as much as if they were our children, and in a way they are. I hope you enjoy the time you have left together before you leave for your wonderful trip, knowing that your "baby" will soon be in a better place. As hard as it is to know now before you go, aren't you glad in a way, so that you can get some closure and can say your good-byes now just in case she's not here when you return?
That said, I know how hard it is to say good-bye when the time comes. I had to say goodbye to my Bear when he was only 6. Bone marrow cancer. I took him to several vets (he was having collosal nosebleeds and had dropped down to 63 lb from 95 lb) before he was finally diagnosed. More than 20 years later and it still brings tears to my eyes.
Give her a kiss for me and tell her what a good dog she is, willya?
Be well, Phoebe bird
....................................................................... No one should die because they can't afford health care and no one should go broke because they get sick.
Posts: 1320 | Location: Chicago USA zone 6 | Registered: May 20, 2002
I am sorry to hear about your friend Jae. My Trudie the boxer is stretched out right beside me while I am typing this. She thinks she is being punished because she is having to wear a cone on her head due to a little accident. While I was at the vets today I saw a poor woman who had to carry her pet back home after its final visit. She looked like the world had crashed on top of her head, but you know I don't think her pet would have wanted her to feel that way. She was just caring for her pet the one last time in the best way possible.
We went through this about a year ago. My boyfried got Trusty from the pound when he was about 2, and he was a good sweet loyal friend for 10 years. Andy was devestated. We still miss him and think about him all the time. We planted a rose bush in his memory.
I hope that you doggy doesn't suffer, and that she goes peacefully.
Posts: 147 | Location: Delaware | Registered: June 15, 2006